I work really hard at this acting stuff. Really hard. Theirs not a day that goes by that I'm not at an audition, memorizing lines, in acting class, at a workshop, or writing postcards to agents. I was working so hard that I started to get burned out. But lucky for me, I was flying back to Massachusetts for the Holidays and after being here for 2 1/2 weeks, I'm ready to hit the ground running again. Tomorrow at 5:30pm, I'll be on plane heading back to LA.
I love the fact that I didn't grow up in California. Between the beaches and palms tree's and the dreams and determination of so many people, it is a beautiful city inside and out. Even after living in California for two years, I still fall in love with this city all over again- every single day. But theirs something about getting away from the magic of Hollywood and being able to go back to the town I grew up in, that I wouldn't trade for the world. It's nice to escape every once and awhile, even if its only for 4 weeks out of the year. That being said, tomorrow I'll say good bye to my family once again. I'll hug my parents and hold back the tears, because I know if they saw me crying, they would only be crying that much harder.
I have a lot of big goals for 2013 and I have 365 days to accomplish every single one of them. 2013 will be a year of changes for me. For starters, within the next few weeks I'll be meeting with three Casting Directors. Scott David, the Casting Director of "Criminal Minds", Disney Casting Director Howard Meltzer who currently casts "Shake It Up" and "Lab Rats" but is mostly known for casting 100 episodes of "Hannah Montana", and my favorite Jami Rudofsky who cast the whole "Gilmore Girls" series and now casts ABC Family's "Bunheads"
In March, my lease ends and my roommate (of 2 years) and I will both be moving out of our apartment and living separately with other people. I don't want to get into much detail, but it's for the best.
I also plan on taking Sitcom Classes at "Actors Comedy Studio" out in Hollywood. Everyone that knows me will agree when I say that I LOVE to make people laugh. Their is no greater feeling in the world than laughing till your stomach hurts. I'm the kind of girl who would rather be called "Funny" instead of "Hot" because for me, nothing is more attractive than a person who can make you laugh.
While all of this is going on, I am patiently waiting by the phone hoping to get that call from Survivor saying "We want you to come out to the island!". Don't be fooled though, my audition for Survivor is a lot different than the other TV shows I audition for. I'm a huge fan of the show, and wether it was on TV or not, I would still want to be on it no matter what the circumstances. I'm doing it for the expierence not the 15 minutes of fame. But on that note, I'm not going to change who I am in order for them to pick me. I don't want to hide the fact that I'm an actor, because its what I love to do. If they don't like it, its there loss- not mine.
One of my biggest goals of the year though is to get a reoccurring role on a TV show. Preferably a sitcom, but I wont be picky. ;) Being an actor, unless you have a starring role in a movie or you're a series regular on a TV show, you never really have a steady job. You might book guest star roles on TV shows every now and then, but those only require a day or two of shooting. Once you wrap, you start the process all over again, going to and from auditions trying to land another guest star role so you can pay the bills. Theirs nothing more I would love then to have to wake up every morning at 5am to head to set.
December 28th marked two years since I've lived in LA. Not only did I grow up so much in these last few years but I also discovered the kind of person I am and the kind of person I want to be. I decided with the new year happening, i'm going to erase all negativity from my life because I didn't deserve some of this crap.